Monday, July 12, 2010

Wow..this time I want a real wedding ..

So my first marriage occurred when I was 22 years old, at the time I thought wow this is it, he is the one I am spending the rest of my life with..this is so awesome. Then the day of the wedding I found myself trying to run out the back door of the community building we were getting married in. Looking back now I realize that was my instinct because he wasn't the one I was to be with forever, he was just a means to an end. ( my beautiful baby boy being the end)
We dated and lived together for 2 yrs, then one day as we are bouncing through a pasture ( he worked on his uncle's ranch at the time) he looks over at me and with a look of someone with a broken spirit says " well, I guess set a date..."....Yep that was my proposal...yet another of hundreds of signs this probably wasn't meant to be...I gave us three months to have everything done and ready.
After 6 years ( and one child who was 9 months old when his daddy left) he decided he wanted a divorce...I was in shock, I knew we had had more bad times than good, but hey what happened to making lemonade from the lemons life gives you...
Well, my son is now two, his dad was remarried 6 months after our divorce was finalized..hmmmm....and I began my adventure in single motherhood.
I dated a bit, had a rebound engagement ( I bought the dress , had the flowers done and got stuck paying off my own engagement ring when the beau disappeared)...
Decided to avoid relationships for a bit..stopped looking for Mr. Right and just enjoyed making new friends and spending lots of time with my son.
Then came Mr. Right...my first clue he was it, he didn't immediately try to get in my panties!
We took time getting to know each other, he took me out on dates and never expected the evening to end in the bedroom...wow I thought guys like that only existed in fairy tales!
We dated for almost two months before going exclusive, and he proposed on June 19th..we had family and friends for a lunch date at a restaurant... I was visiting with his Step mom and he asked me if he could have my attention for a few minutes...
He took my hands in his and told me that before my son and I came into his life he didn't even realize he was missing so much and now all he wants is to be with us and then he asked me to be his wife...it was so amazing and so different from my first proposal...
Well as I said before I had only given myself three months to prepare for my first wedding and ended up only have a about 15 guests ( and all but two were family) ... I want a real wedding this time and have a year to plan...I already have the dress ( call it tacky if you want, but those darn things aren't cheap!) and the flowers are done as well ( we both love blue and green , and those were the colors I had chosen for the wedding that didn't happen) so it worked out.
I know we are going to have the big event in my huge backyard, with the reception to follow ( we have a very tight budget and I have a beautiful back yard ) ...
We want a secular ceremony and a small dance with food after , this won't be a totally traditional wedding but it is going to be a bit larger than my first.
I need ideas for decorations that can withstand the panhandle winds, while looking fabulous, but still fit a tight budget.
I am also a person who over prepares...I want to have tables ready on the sides for the reception, a cover over the seating area ( in case we get an evening thunderstorm starting) ...I am just not sure where to start looking for these things , as my first wedding was in a community center and my mom ( bless her) got everything ready and together. I don't want to burden her a 2nd time....any how for anyone who lives in the amarillo area if you know of some budget friendly rental places for canopies and such let me know.